I...really...don't like...my life...I think...the world is really...going to end soon...why?...Firstly...Love is no longer considered a feeling or emotion...examples are everywhere if you want me to explain...and especially those people around me...Last night...I was starting to wash my dishes when my parents suddenly started arguing from just a "Cleaning habit" problem...and it went on until the "My mother's death"...and at that time...they were speaking in Tagalog...hoping that my sister and I wouldn't hear as they know that our Tagalog isn't that good...but I understood every word they said...and that's when I realized about Windy's situation...or...problem...Her "idol" was simply either hiding his feelings or he really doesn't like anyone...and as I compare the two stories...it made me think that...I should have done "that" a long time ago...if my parents were to stop arguing...they would if my sister was suddenly sick...but they would not if I was sick...then after I washed the dishes I wanted to go to my rooftop to has a little breeze  to clam myself...and to remind myself of Windy...but I only sat on the stair way first as I took my phone and my keys...and I started texting in my phone...it was only half way done until my mother came and told me to go to bed... so...if I only had one wish...I wished that...I hadn't existed to feel...all pain and suffering...after all...as someone has told me before..."Why doesn't God continue to help us heal our heart anymore?"

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Love is no longer a feeling or emotion related on earth...everything...is just...a disillusion...is that how you feel...Windy?...I can't stand my parents anymore as they always argue every night...if only I could jump into the pool of the lake of fire...then I would only have to feel the pain of torture instead...